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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 14:08

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

As i do to all so called friends.?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Especially a lifetime of it.

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was seconnd youngest,

I will be 64.

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Ive learnt so much.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

How do you have intercourse with a girl who can remember you for a long time?

Put me off passion for life!!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Do Flat Earthers exist today? If so, where do they live?

Who then, do I blame.?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

When she asked me how she looked .

Why would an older small breed dog become obsessive about hygiene?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Why do some men like older women?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Is Twilight appropriate for a 12-year-old?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Why is Tiananmen Square censored?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

So whats the point in blame.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

All the time i was locked up.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We were not on the streets..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He resisted the act ,that day.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

She loved him until the end.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

It was going to be , some day.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Im still living with it.

I was very sick at this time too.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We all went to grammer schools

One cannot live in the past .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She was in good health!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My family never makes their pension either.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I think the readers, may guess!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She married twice! .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was 9 years of age.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I said to her

He knew the spot.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I never cut or harmed myself..

But, we were locked up after school.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Comes on , in middle age.

But it wasn’t much.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I don,t even have a pension.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She found it foreign!.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I write beautiful poetry .

This is soul school!.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

What did i know ?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

So, i spoilt her more .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And i lived it daily.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Would this be the day?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But ive been too sick for many years..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I have no regrets .

My life is so biszare .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Why did i forgive my father ?

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I was scared of men, in general

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I waited trembling.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She wouldn,t have been !

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)