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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 01:14

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was scared of men, in general

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

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I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Have you ever had a weird experience immediately following the death of a loved one that made you think there is an afterlife and that the deceased person was communicating with you?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She was in good health!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Would this be the day?

Ive learnt so much.

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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Comes on , in middle age.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why do narcissists want to hurt your feelings, even after they discard you?

I was very sick at this time too.

Was to survive, this bastard.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Why do ugly men flirt with girls that are really hot?

I was 9 years of age.

She married twice! .

She found it foreign!.

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I was seconnd youngest,

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

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She loved him until the end.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He resisted the act ,that day.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

What did i know ?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I think the readers, may guess!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I don,t even have a pension.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

As i do to all so called friends.?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I will be 64.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Put me off passion for life!!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I said to her

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

It was going to be , some day.

So whats the point in blame.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I could never make a relationship work though!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My family never makes their pension either.

I write beautiful poetry .

And i lived it daily.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

(And it was in our own minds.)

But, we were locked up after school.

My life is so biszare .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I never cut or harmed myself..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But ive been too sick for many years..

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

All the time i was locked up.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But it wasn’t much.

This is soul school!.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Im still living with it.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

We were not on the streets..

We all went to grammer schools

He knew the spot.

I couldn’t, believe it.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Who then, do I blame.?

She wouldn,t have been !

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I have no regrets .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

One cannot live in the past .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

When she asked me how she looked .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Why did i forgive my father ?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

So, i spoilt her more .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I waited trembling.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years